I didnt know how my highschool year would turn out, it seemed to be a boring school, it always felt like prison to me. I thought i never had a boyfriend, that i never thought i would spend four years with him…its been four years, and some how, i can never give up on him.
I dont mean to call you stupid or pathetic…i just say because maybe im angry at myself. I put you through so much, that it makes me cry to see myself like this. I just want you to know that i love you mom and im sorry i cant be your perfect little girl. Im sorry for hurting your feelings, there’s a part of me that wants to change but i need your help and trust. I just want to make you happy…i love you mom.
The first dream i had…i was in a fourth of july parade and was alone…..i lied to an officer saying that i didnt know where my parents were when they were a few feet away from me. I saw my uncle there too, i havent seen him for awhile but he was flirting with some girls dancing in the parade. The second dream i had was i was entering a hallmark like store you know the one that sells holiday stuff or like birthday cards, anyway i wanted to look at something and a old man got in my way, didnt know i was gonna look at that object and i got really upset, my grandma was there and she told the oldman what he did and i was just looking at the agenda books. He came over to me and i had no idea what he was talking about but he grab my agenda book and wrote down his number and said “if you need any help, call me anytime”. Later a secruity guard came and charged us for writing in a agenda book that we havent purchased, then out of nowhere another one came and the other disappeared…we were arguing and fighting, then she said something about me and my mom and it really ticked me off so we got in a huge fight…and i started crying and the lady was trying to apoligize and hold me down but i was continuing to hit her to let me go and thats when i woke up. And finally my third dream…i really dont remember how it began but im with some people at my school that i barely know. We were walking around in the dark and we were going to this guys house i was with and i was thinking of going in but i was like whatever, so i went in. I go in and it smelled so bad and the guy i was with was not chinese and his parents and sisters were. As i went upstairs with him and the other two his parents were sleeping on couches. When i went upstairs there were two bunnys and a dog. I sat on his bed and the animals came and i started petting them when the little came in and called to her mom, he girl of the two i walked with said that i should of waited outside, i ran downstairs and the girl was trying to wake up her mom and i finally got away. I saw her came out of the house and the little girl followed me. I didnt know where i was going but it became bright i came outside and there was a beach. So not knowing where i was going i suddenly started going to a water park…and the little girl found me and said that the mom wanted to talk to me about being in her house and that i wasnt in trouble so i lied and i said i have to go. In the end i end up getting lost in he amusement park and trying to find my hotel or apartment. Not reliazing later i was in the water slides and trying to figure out where to go.
So thats my weird confusing dreams….